ateng_batigol

salam and greet to all…

Its been a while huh..?..nevertheless here it goes..

I have promised myself not to stereotype anyone with any group of people. Unfortunately, lately I found its hard to deny that some stereotypes might apply. So i decided to share this with whoever that would cares. Apparently, my fingers are shaking right now making typing such a dificult task to handle. haha…not sure y tho. Maybe coz I am too tired or maybe I am too anxious to share this. Being in the States thought me a lot of lessons (what we should and should not do). Respect other people, do not invade others property and privacy, appreciate your life and make friends. I believe theres nothing new to everyone on these aspects.

The word "mengumpat" is somewhat so common in our life especially Malay society. I am not saying that I’m an an angel but I found it so excruciatingly, insufferably, agonizingly, horrendously, unbearably painful when you are being attacked by your "unknown" enemy/enemies. Make things even worse, you know that they are among your friends. yahoo!!

I have been keeping myself cool and tried not to point my finger to anyone and eversince its becoming more disturbing than ever. Hurm..maybe thats why its shaking ( I guess if I put a milk it can turn out to be an excellent milk shake). May Allah give me strength on this.

Imagine if you are being put in a neutral position and you have no interest whatsoever in any party. Suprisingly, it turned up that the 2 parties that you are good with do not blend as well with each other. Personally I have full respect not to invade nor to take part in the muddy situation. Suddenly, people started to believe that all this while, the person that caused so much fragmentation and segregation between the two is me! And even frustrating, there is a consensus out there solely believe that "he is the parasite of the community…pecah belahkan umat". Its a bit awkward and things are not the same anymore.

Should I go public? should I keep quiet? should I do some effort to deny those misconceptions? I am not sure.

Luckily I have talked to the two groups and both deny such accusations. Now I wonder who got my back and whos taking advantage out of it.

What a game to play. Above all, I want nothing else apart for this to end and I want it to end delicately. Umpama nak menarik rambut dari tepung. Pray may HE guides me and gives me wisdom.

May my fingers stop shaking again.

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